I haven’t posted or been active on this website or my social media pages in months. The last you all heard of me I was Coming Down With the Sickness, I missed my one year post, I just sort of fell off the face of the Earth! That’s not very Alive and All Over of me! During that time, please know that I was at the very least, ALL OVER. Traveling, joining groups, fighting for a place to live, meeting new people, gaining new experiences, getting a few new pets, when I say All Over, I mean ALLLLL OVERRRR! In many of the moments I truly felt alive, I witnessing some of life greatest beauties, feeling some of lifes greatest pains. In many of these moments I felt, not Alive, not dead, but maybe numb. I’ve reached a high point in my spiritual journey, I have this love for myself and the world and everything in it, but the strife it took to reach this point was no easy feat.
When I started this blog, I knew I would never be able to be as consistent as other bloggers, influencers or social media posters tend to be. That didn’t change the amount of effort, love, money (that I pay every month even when I’m not active) that went into this little project of mine. Through the last few months I have gone through self reflection after self reflection, and found out the many intricacies that make me, me, and each day, I learn a little more.
I’m the sort of person to put all of myself into a task, into my research, into projects or crafts I’m working on, into learning new things. I hyperfixate, and work towards, and love all the things I have discovered from really sitting down and getting into the nitty gritty of some of the things life has to offer. I have knowledge on things that are seemingly random, birds, chakras, baking, candles and what each color means when you light them, Targaryen family trees, genetic disorders, what happens to a womans body when she gives birth, why rabbits like to pee on your bed, just knowledge (I clearly love a comma delimited list). Seemingly random but not exactly so, these are just interest that make up Alyssa. I dive deep into them and then I put it aside and cache them until someone opens them up from me.
The time in which I learn each of these little subjects are different seasons of my life. Times when I needed to know them, and to be reopened up when I need them. I needed to learn what different colors meant for different candles because I needed their natural aid for emotional work. I needed to create a blog because I was going through a hard time of not knowing I belonged, I needed to know I was where I was supposed to be, I needed to share my experience to anyone who may have felt the same. The season of writing in my blog ended when life got to heavy. There was no time to share my life on my blog, I could barely share my life with myself. I’m back because those experiences, each and every single one is important, they could help someone to not feel so alone, or to give different perspectives, but at the very least, or very most, I need to let my creativity flow right now. It’s so important to me. The collective conscious gives us so much, I have so much gratitude for her. The least I could do is give back to her through creativity.
So let me be the first to welcome you back to Alive and All Over, lol, who else would welcome you back but me 🙂 For these next few days, or months, or however long this season takes, I’ll be sharing my stories of my time away. However they are received by you, whenever they are, just know that they were delievered to you with much love and care!
As always ladies, gentlemen, non-binary or agender folks, who ever you are, how ever you are, please remember to Stay Alive and be ALLLLL OVERRRRR. I’ll be sharing with you soon 😉