I am writing this the very night before she is meant to be published with my computer on 3%. As we get further into the school year, and I’m given more responsibilities, it’s hard not to feel like other things, that are very important to me but aren’t necessarily necessary, have to take the back seat. Alive and All Over has sadly been taking the back seat. I haven’t had the inspiration, the deep seated feelings, the connections to myself that I preach about on this blog that help me to write. I want that back. I want to remind myself why I’m doing this and what I’m doing this for. I’m going to reclaim my power.
Alive and All Over was written for little eigth grade Alyssa and for people who feel like or who have ever felt like her. What did she feel like? Like at any moment it could be the end. Like the world around her would swallow her up and she would drown and never be able to make it out. Feeling like there is no one to help you, or who understands the complexities of what you’re feeling. Like this is all there is to life.
I created this blog to shine light on her. To show her how much this life will come to mean. Everyday has been a gift, stressful, or tiring, or worrisome, it has been a gift. I created this blog with the intention of taking a moment to appreciate all the goodness around us and to know that our purpose is much greater than pain and that we deserve to feel that way. With every post I intend to make you feel a deeper connection with yourself, with the people around you, with the world around you.
Last week was midterms week and like other college students, studying and working and juggling all of the things around you take a toll. It gets a bit harder to find your center and find time to meditate and maybe even sit down for a warm meal without also studying. I’m writing this to you and myself: We must take moments throughout the day to be Alive when we feel more All Over.
When I say Alive and All Over, I mean to find the balance between experiencing life on the outside while taking care of yourself on the inside, and I haven’t been doing much of that. Writing for the past few weeks has been a bit more of a struggle for me, finding the time and inspiration. Keeping up with a blog isn’t just the writing, its the getting the word out there and keeping up with socials that I am more struggling with. I want to get myself out there I want to reach people and to make connections. I am determined to figure that out because this is important to me.
Writing this did help me. Reminding myself that there is always time for Alyssa, and hopefully this little peek into my little blogger mind helps you out a bit too, I appreciate you always for reading, sharing, and supporting me, and please remember to Stay Alive and Be All Over!
